The energy I spent today was good for a week. I attended two church Christmas parties. As an introvert, parties are not my cup of tea. Interacting with many people drains my energy quickly. One was a pajama party with the Technical and Stage Ministry team and the other was a 70’s themed party for our whole congregation. It was fun but I’m spent. There was dance time but it was too short because they had to play some games at the beginning of the event to cater to kids. Anyway, I had the urge to setup my room into a makeshift disco for my own extended dance time at home.💃🏻 I danced with Putochan and my baby plushies.🐷🐻🐱 Dancing was refreshing.
Yuto, I miss you.🙄 I just want to watch U dancing to recharge now.🔋
I know how I usually want to run away from my own thoughts and feelings, but today, I realized how I should just embrace them. Of course, it doesn’t take away the responsibility of managing them so they won’t bring harm to others. But that’s not the point right now. I don’t know when I formed this habit of withholding good things from myself. It’s only these past few months that I have come to terms to reward myself by buying the stuff that I want, eating the stuff that I want, and though still a work in progress, to do the stuff that I want. Previously, I only splurge on other people and am very stingy with myself.
I went to visit my parents today. My dad was finally released from the hospital after a successful major operation. I thank the Lord Almighty and everyone who prayed with us! Although he is still not allowed to receive guests in the next months, at least now we don’t need to wear the full cover apparel when we see him. We still need to always wear a mask though and make sure we wash our hands before coming into the room where he is staying. 😷