Catch Up

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Dear blog, let us catch up.

Saturday. I woke up early to prepare for the Java SE boot camp. It was my first time to commute to the venue so I gave myself some buffer to figure things out. Thank God the commute went smoothly. Class was productive. I learned a lot. I enjoyed hands-on lab exercises more than the lectures.

There are 11 students in total but 2 were absent. Only 2 of us are girls. As expected of programming students, most of us are reserved and introverted although we also have a fair share of classmates who enjoy being know-it-alls. That’s normal. During breaks, the rest of us just let them blab away all they want, and don’t really have the energy to engage them. We occasionally nod as we go about our business: eating, checking our phones, playing mobile games, etc. We have daily food allowance consumable in the school cafeteria, which is extremely convenient because we don’t need to worry about where and what to eat. I think I ate too much.

Sunday. I attended a worship service in the morning, had lunch with my parents, and took 2 consecutive pop-up classes late in the afternoon. It was fun and challenging. As expected, I had a hard time memorizing the steps. I get the steps while the coach was teaching them, but I tend to blank out when I have to dance them from memory. I hope they send the videos soon so I can practice. I’m the type who needs to practice a lot before I can execute properly. I don’t feel bad though because I don’t think I’m that far behind from the people around me. I’m just really slow when it comes to memorizing the steps. But once I memorize it, my swag comes out. I think I’m pretty decent.

I feel sleepy now. I’ll update my Produce X 101 post tomorrow. 💤

Random Stuff

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One-by-one the staple K-drama male leads are returning from military service. The drought in quality k-drama will soon be over! ⭐

I’ve started working on my translation project during my spare time. The story is interesting and the language is casual so I think I can progress steadily on this. 🙂

I miss Yuto but I’m trying to be as patient as possible because they’re hinting that ONF’s Off team is cooking something. 😉 I want to start working on a new Yuto FMV hopefully by next week.

I’m joining a couple of pop-up dance classes on Sunday night: jazz funk and urban. My brother said the pieces will be a little challenging. I’m a little scared honestly but I’m also excited. I really want to keep on dancing and improve.

My Saturdays are full too until the end of July. There’s this whole-day programming boot camp I need to attend. I’m looking forward to that too. I know I’m such a nerd. Haha 🤓

This Is Why You’re Afraid Of Love, Based On Your Zodiac Sign (Natalia Vela)

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I’m fascinated with astrology but I don’t follow it or take it too seriously. I came across this article by someone named Natalia Vela entitled “This Is Why You’re Afraid Of Love, Based On Your Zodiac Sign”. Her section on Virgo (I am a Virgo.) is spot on! She wrote: (highlights mine)

VIRGO

Virgo, you only let people see what you want them to see. You live inside self-constructed protective walls and are skilled at keeping your self-perceived faults hidden. There’s this inability you struggle with to feel worthy and beautiful. This inferiority complex stems from your overly critical and analytical nature. Yes, you’re hard on other people, but the person you’re hardest on is yourself. You’re well too aware of your own flaws and shortcomings.

Your striving for perfectionism and not living up to your own standards disables you from realizing just how worthy of love you are. So, you embark on a pattern of attracting the emotionally unavailable, the hot messes, the fixer-uppers, and lost ones, because they feel like a safe bet. You’re so afraid of someone who actually deserves you because you will constantly fear that you don’t deserve them.

You have an inherent fear of love because of what the possibility of a true connection might mean. The idea of being open and exposed terrifies you. Not only are you afraid that someone might discover that you have a soft and vulnerable heart, but you’re afraid that they’re going to see those things you don’t like about yourself and that they won’t like them either. You place such hard expectations on yourself that you’re afraid you won’t meet those of a potential partner. Here is another part of life where you are letting your analytical abilities dominate your feelings.

Maybe you’ve come to discover the dream you weren’t even aware you had – being uncovered by someone. You’re so terrified of intimacy, but deep down you crave it like you crave nothing else. Perhaps you got your heart broken allowing someone to do just that and then ended up blindsided, not feeling loved or accepted. Now you’re walking around carrying a constant fear of betrayal and unwittingly pushing away possible matches.

You’re continually wavering between extreme paranoia and excessive trust. You need someone you can trust but you’re afraid of falling for someone who will be more important to you than you are to them – yet another consequence of that inferiority complex.

Minakami, Gunma

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A friend from Japan who is also named Yuto opened a travel vlog channel. He featured Minakami, a town in Gunma Prefecture.

Overthinking

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Girls like me tend to overthink and overanalyze. Did he mean anything by this? Does this mean something? We are constantly trying to look for unspoken clues to verify the theories we made up in our heads. Women have strong gut feelings but sometimes these can just be products of delusion – a sort of projection of our inner thoughts and desires. That is why I told myself to never assume and to wait for clear intentions to be informed and spoken out. This reduces the chances of getting into awkward situations due to miscommunication and misinterpretation.

Speaking of which, Yuto has been wearing dangling cross earrings a lot recently on one ear and a stud on the other. I wore dangling cross earrings on one ear and stud on the other when I met him. I wonder if that means something. LOL. What it means is that we both like wearing cross earrings on one ear and a stud on the other. 😉

😴

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I’m almost done editing my Yuto FMV. I’ll finish it tomorrow. I need to rest so I’ll have enough energy for dance class.✨