“Come waltz with me.”

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My greatest fantasy is for the guy I like to extend his hand to me and ask, “Will you dance with me?”❤️ I’ve always dreamed of the guy I like to lead me in a slow waltz. I’m not talking about the school prom or school ball type of dancing but a proper slow waltz. Maybe I should take formal ballroom classes.😊

Like most girls in the planet, I dream of wearing beautiful gowns and twirling around in them under the starry night sky or under magnificent chandeliers. This is partly why I love ballet. Apart from the beautiful lines and shapes it creates, it allows dancers to wear pretty costumes. I like the elegance and dignity it exudes. It feels magical and romantic.

Lord, please let him be a guy who can rock the waltz.

Two Quotes

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There were two memorable quotes today.

“I hope you can meet someone who loves you more than I do.” My heart throbbed. This quote is from the Chinese movie remake of イタズラなKiss (Mischievous Kiss). Now that I have decided to give up on Yuto, this will be my sincere prayer for him.

The other one is from the song Hosanna by Hillsong. “Break my heart for what breaks yours.” It means to care for what God cares for, to feel compassion towards what God feels compassion for, and to want what God wants. It also made me realize that this is another trait that I should consider when choosing a partner. Apart from someone who speaks the same love languages, I’m hoping for a person whose heart beats and breaks for the same things mine does. Am I just hoping for someone like me but is a guy?😅

Finally

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I think I have successfully let go of the unnecessary feelings now. White Day has passed and while I thought it was sweet, I wasn’t blown away. I’ve woken up now. I’m ready to be purely a Yuto dance fan.🥳 I am still a Fuse and he will still be my bias without the unhealthy obsession.

I’m also excited for Lee Gikwang’s collaboration with Kid Milli! I saw the teaser. Gikwang is on my crushables list. I remember him best from Dancing High. He is a great dancer and is very handsome. Will he become my new bias? I don’t know.

🌹

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Make up and hair extensions can do wonders!✨ I like how sentimental this looks. 🌹I look taller and more mature? Whatever. It looks like a painting.🎨 Hohoho!😘 I need an evil laugh emoji. I still have time to grow my hair this long until my brother’s wedding next year.

Will I finally be able to move on from U [유]?

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This is good. This is good. I’m starting to feel a bit distant towards Yuto lately. It’s probably because of several factors: 1) I’m actively looking for a potential new bias. 2) I was slightly disappointed that he released a vlog from ONF’s HK trip instead of a dance video. 3) I think he should get a hair cut soon. His hair is a bit long now. I’m also not digging the full blonde. I prefer his hair in two tones like it was a month ago. 4) I feel envious of all the fans who get to meet them during fan meets. I wish I could see them too. I feel left behind while everyone else is growing closer to them. I can also feel how comfortable they are around their Korean fans in contrast to how they were when I saw them in Hong Kong. It’s totally not their fault of course. It’s totally normal and totally understandable considering the proximity and the absence of a language barrier. I’m just starting to be more aware of the distance now.

White Day and U’s birthday are coming up so it’s too early to say. If he suddenly drops a dance video, I don’t think I will be able to.