I think the strategy to divide my affection to two artists in order to diminish my attachment to one is working. The desire to check for updates and the hype I used to have with Yuto’s every update has started to cool off. I also noticed that the degree of liking I have for both of them is just slightly above normal now. It made me think about love and relationships in general. I don’t think it’s humanely possible to genuinely love more than one person romantically at the same time. It’s either you like one of them more or you actually don’t love any of them at all. Like the verse says (although in a different context) “No one can serve two masters. Either you will hate the one and love the other, or you will be devoted to the one and despise the other. ” (Matthew 6:24 a,b). It’s ironic because as a Christian who has received God’s love and forgiveness countless times, I don’t believe in second (or more) chances when it involves infidelity. There are no ‘mistakes’. Infidelity reflects the state of ‘love’ that person has for you. If someone is unfaithful to you, I believe that person doesn’t love you and you don’t deserve that. Period. That is my personal opinion and I’m not saying that it applies to other people. This is why God is amazing how he can patiently wait on undeserving people like us.