I saw a rainbow today. I wanted to show it to U but I lack the confidence. I’m having that episode again where I just want to lie low and not be a creepy, obsessive fan. When you seriously think about it, if there were someone whom I didn’t exactly know and like, and he did all these things that I do — like keep a Pinterest board of me, create FMVs, whatever, I’ll freak out. If he were older, that would make it gross. Well, U is a celebrity so there’s a big difference in perspective and tolerance but still it must feel creepy.
I want to drop the obsession right now and just be a fan of the songs and the dancing. That is it. This rainbow is a call to end the crush. I will start off by fighting the urge to pin stuff on my Mix Nine Pinterest board.